the start of something new

The first year of my high school year was one of the best school years i have ever have. Not only it wasn't middle school, but it was a chance to start over, start from scratch. The world seemed so big to me then. My brother was telling me about Young life and how its good to make friends and to learn about God. "Learn about God?" i asked myself a million times. I thought it over for awhile running the idea in my head. I started going to Young life mid November, standing alone waiting for it to start.  Suddenly, a girl with short dark hair and a wide smile came running over to me " Hi! I'm Ashley! Whats your name?" "Umm Liv" i was caught of guard by her personality. Well, it didn't take long till we were best friends. I met a lot of her other friends that share the bubbly personalty. Ashley, Kayla, Brooke, and Lauren soon were my best friends. They weren't just friends i could talk with about random stuff that happened that day, but we talked about something totally amazing. "God". Soon my faith grew stronger and they were there for me teaching the word of the lord. That was one of the best years i have ever had. Just giggling and sharing it with people i love the most. Of course they were a few years older then i was and they were seniors. It didn't cross my mind that they would be gone next year. They were my best friends the ones i spent most of my time with and they would be gone in a flash. I would miss the times where we would prank the guys, and sing Justin Bieber for hours, where would that all go? where would the god talks go? I felt empty without them , no soul no thrill to want to learn about Christ's love. A few months later, a lot of things happened that I'm not suppose to say, but they were awful. Things that i wish had never happened. I was questioning god saying "why is this happening to the people i love? why can't it be me?" I talked to Brooke the next night and i told her what all has been happening. The drama, the boys, and of course the pain since they left for college. I told her that i haven't been as strong as i have been before when they were around. I MISSED THEM. Brooke told me that the lord isn't gone. Hes still there for you he hasn't left your side once. She told me that everything would be OK. I still felt empty without my girls. I missed those nights where we would just stare at the stars wondering what would happen next. Brooke told me something i have never heard. She said that Christ was the ones inside of Ashley, Kayla, Brooke and Lauren. It was Christ reassuring that everything would be OK when they comforted me. Its the work of the lord that has driven me to bring myself closer to him and followers of the lord. Everything that happens is him causing it. Hes the light that brings you out of the darkness. He makes all the flowers grow tall and all the birds singing happily. Everything that happens, happens for a reason. We have to accept that. We have to move on from our old lives and start new ones. Its god that is working through us and we have to trust him that the things that happen that causes pain in our hearts, its better in the long run. All this pain and sorrow, he takes the sins away. Its like a ocean washing up on the sea shore. He takes it all away. We have to learn to trust in the lord or we never will get anywhere.
I'm sorry if this is very mixed up but i was just writing down all that was on my heart and Gods heart. Hes a miracle worker when you think about all the good that he has done in your life. be thankful for it. Don't wish for something more than what you have.

But those who wait on the LORD shall renew their strength; They shall mount up with wings like eagles, They shall run and not be weary, They shall walk and not faint. Isaiah 40:31